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Eye Test - Say What You See

Does anyone else dread this like I do?

And before I go on, yes my eyesight is bad! It's when they ask you to read the lowest line on the chart and I'm hoping for any letters but d & b as I always get them mixed up, I'm sure the opticians wouldn't even batter an eyelid (no pun intended), but my anxiety starts, I can hear my voice going wobbly, this intern makes me doubt what I'm seeing. And now I'm getting to the age where they spend a long time checking the health of my eyes, 'look up to the right, the left', I'm thinking which is which. I do have trick  (or a strategy as the experts might say) at working right from left. As a child I was in the brownies, even went up the ranks and became a sixer- oh yeah boasting time! The solute, were your thumb and little finger bend to touch each other is always done on your right hand. So when I trying to work out right from left, your see me bring my thumb and finger together. On the right hand this feels natural, the left not. I would like to point out I don't go into full solute mood and start reciting 'we're brownie guides, we're brownie guides, here to lead a hand...' Wow that's just come flooded back to me! 

The only time this trick has failed was at my wedding. When it came to putting the rings on each other, my husband picked up my wedding ring,  I quickly and sneaky started drawing my thumb and little finger towards each other, 'yes that feels natural so its my right hand, therefore I need to give him the other hand' I think to myself.  Fab this little trick has worked again, never lets me down, I can relax now. I take a deep breath- didn't want to muck that up in front of everyone. This has been going on over and over in my head for months leading up to this point- in fact I've even woke up in a panic worrying about putting the wrong hand out and then everyone laughing at me. 

Now its my turn to put his wedding ring on. I pick up the ring, all relaxed with a big smile on my face- no need to worry now my main concern has past without any problems. What I hadn't planned for was my soon to be husband not raising his left hand to me, instead I could see the look of panic on his face while he works out which hand it should be on. I would like to point out he isn't dyslexic, nor does he get his rights and lefts mixed up- he just didn't know what hand or even finger a wedding ring goes on. I could tell this at it was the exact same look he had in the jewelers when we went to buy them. His panic and my now sudden realization that I need to do something, I just grabbed a hand, any hand. He looks relived for a second or two, then concern. At this point the victor (in quite a loud voice) informs everyone in the church that I'm trying to put the ring on the wrong hand. Wallop my nightmare becomes reality, feels like I've been punched -  everyone is laughing at me.

Still on a more positive note (feel its important to finish a post on one), I survived the eye test, no right and left mix ups and my eye slight hasn't got any worst- result!
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